Things are not looking so good for me bar-wise. I don't think I will be allowed to sit for the July bar due to credit issues. I spent about 4 minutes freaking out with my mom on the phone and another few minutes with my dad. I think I had a minor freak out with Essie, but I know I freaked out on her for just trying to be helpful on a different issue. That's the great thing about my family--they are used to my freak outs and don't get all bent out of shape about them-at least not permanently. So I went for a walk and regrouped. Here is my new attack plan: apply for government jobs that do not require bar admission, apply for paralegal positions, and as a last resort, move back in with the folks and work at a steel mill. (The steel mill was dad's suggestion.) And get my finances in the order the bar wants them in and try again in February.

People in this town do not believe in putting their dogs on leashes and it makes me nuts. I encountered 3 unleashed dogs on my 30 minute walk. If I were a dog napper, I would make a great living in this town with very little effort.

Sorry Rachel, but only losers post to Craigslist missed connections. You will never, NEVER find a quality human being with any amount of self respect posting on there. Every time I look on there--which is not that often, just when I want to laugh at the less fortunate, I ask myself, what kind of person would actually post here? I think the best descriptor would be: desperate. Look at the post below--you have a woman desperate for her beloved coat. There was a post from a dead-beat mom to her 2 kids that were taken away from her. Again, desperation. And as for the men and women who post in hopes of finding romance--good lord, how pathetic and desperate must they be! I guarantee they all look like the missing link or have some hideous disfigurement. Seriously, money back guarantee. Attractive people, semi-attractive people, and anyone with an ounce of self-worth would not have to stoop to what really amounts to begging a stranger for attention. Losers. The end.
P.S. I met your mom on Craigslist.

Craigslist is funny

Have You Seen This Jacket?

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Reply to: pers-602253301@craigslist.org
Date: 2008-03-10, 11:03PM EDT


Dear You,

Yeah, you. You stupid, silly, drunk girl who decided it was a great idea to steal my amazing jacket. Your days are numbered.

The only thing I love more than that jacket are my friends. And THEY would love nothing more than to avenge me. Sure, it was just sitting there all alone on a barstool. So were numerous handbags and OTHER jackets you could have nabbed. Didn't you notice it was a semi-private party? I could name everyone there except you and your stupid girlfriend. So can everyone else that attended. They will get you while I stay inside shivering BECAUSE YOU HAVE MY FUCKING COAT.

That jacket and me go way back. It's been my springtime evening jacket for the past five years. Do you even know what that means? It means I only wear it out for special occasions. In the SPRING. I swear to God, if I see you in it on a November day I will punch you in the face for not realizing the rules that come with wearing a jacket like this. And then I will take back my baby.

I'm flattered that you obviously liked my jacket so much. I mean, I know, it's a great piece. On ME.

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I never told you this before, but I invented wikipedia.

My class tonight was cancelled at the last minute, and I cheered like I won the lottery. Seriously--I danced around my apartment home and experienced tears of joy.

Have you caught the story of Debbie Shank and the evil Wal-Mart? Such a sad story. This Wal-Mart employee was injured in a car accident which has left her disabled--severe TBI, her husband is recovering from prostate cancer and a few weeks ago, their 18 year old son was killed in the war (or whatever the government is calling it). Job never had it so hard. And the kicker is, Wal-Mart has successfully sued the Shanks for the medical costs it paid out. There was a clause in the health care contract that wal-mart can seek repayment of medical expenses if there is a lawsuit/settlement. The Shanks did have a settlement from the trucking company that hit their car, but the money is quickly running out as Ms. Shank is in assisted living in a private room. I have a lot of personal feelings about why this is wrong--big company doesn't need the money etc.. but I also think that clause is just not logical. If you win a settlement, the numbers are based on something---loss of future earnings, cost of health care etc. so why would a company seek repayment just because there was a settlement? A settlement does not mean there will be tons of money--outrageous settlements are not the norm.

Wal-Mart won their case and won the appeal. The story mentioned the Shanks were appealing to the Supreme Court. I don't know much about insurance law, but it seems strange to be able to contract out of paying benefits just because someone won a settlement. Again, I go back to my reasons above--and I keep getting confused as to whether or not you are allowed to sue for medical expenses you didn't actually have to pay. So if I went to the doctor and the bill was 100, but I only paid a 20 c0-pay, can I sue for 100, or must I sue for 20? I think I am only allowed to sue for 20. If this is the case, and employers are allowed to recoup for medical expenses, perhaps plaintiffs should be allowed to sue for actual medical costs and not the out of pocket amount. If anyone knows the answer to this, tell me because I will forget to look it up.

I fought the urge to go buy tons of Easter candy at half off today. Sugar is bad. I finally watched Super Size Me yesterday, and I am trying to eat better. Not because of that, but because I am trying to eat better. I also finally watched Madama Butterfly--as performed by the NY Opera. There is one decent aria-and you all know it, but I did enjoy the story. The first opera I ever saw was also by Puccini-it was Tosca, and I hated it. Not a big opera fan.

It sucks always being sleepy because I never get things done. I have been telling myself that if I were a famous actress, I would be busy day and night, so I should stop complaining and get my work done. It doesn't work because if I were a famous actress, I would be getting paid with a capital P. It's kind of hard to get my butt in gear for no money. I wish I were eating candy right now.

I followed a link a friend sent me about dog fur being used for sweaters and it lead me to youtube video of poor little raccoon dogs being skinned alive for their fur. I watched about 15 seconds of it and had to turn it off. So if you know someone who enjoys fur--make them stop because that video was the most awful thing I have ever seen. Even worse than the video a few weeks back that was everywhere in the media of the cows being abused. Poor little animals.

I will not share the link because it will make you cry.

This week has sucked on so many levels.

Good news: I found a new website that makes me want to spend every dollar I have ever earned purchasing their fine goods.

http://www.lochers.com/

How have I never stumbled upon this site before? I want everything they have for sale. Cute and sassy.

I am super dissatisfied with my life right now. I've got to make some changes. And I am so glad I will soon be leaving this town, but I feel like I am not living a full life because I am waiting for some uncertain moving day. I am certain I am moving, I just don't know when, and does it make sense to do nothing/stagnate just because I plan on moving in a few months?

I keep looking at areas of my life and thinking I should be doing a better job of managing my life. I am extremely critical of myself--and it becomes difficult to change things I don't like because I have hurt my own feelings beating myself up over things.

So I will just have to either be nicer to myself or be a better self-motivator because some things just HAVE to change. Like all the junk food I eat and how that makes me look and then how that makes me feel.

I do feel pretty good about not dating someone right now--I feel positive that I would date beneath me as I have in the past because I don't feel good about my physical appearance. Some people want to pressure me into dating, but I got to tell you, it would be a disaster right now--for the reason I just stated as well as my impending departure. Messy.

How many people do you think get into Ivy League schools that don't really deserve it? I want to go to an Ivy League school, but I think my undergrad grades and current law school grades would keep me out. I wonder if I could just leave that bit out and apply anyway?

Crap. I think I am in trouble at work. I just got an email: see me first thing in the morning about the chart.
I was chastised this morning for something that wasn't my fault--I explained it to them so they would know I did my job correctly, but....I am always worried I am about to get fired.
I have a feeling I made some stupid mistake because I was pissed about them keeping me late without asking, and then really cranky because they didn't feed me, and anxious to leave b/c I had not yet let my dogs out. So all of those things together probably resulted in a mistake.

I just hope they don't fire me.

I know I shouldn't be complaining about my job one week in, but they kind of irritated me today. They scheduled me for a meeting 11:30-2:30. Normally, I would leave at 1, but this is spring break. They did not ask me if I was willing and able to work later than 1 today--I guess they just assumed. Either that or they forgot. That annoys me. And then, I got back from the meeting, and they had already ordered and eaten lunch, but they did not ask me if I wanted lunch. So I finished what I had to do and left. They didn't ask me if I wanted lunch Friday either, and it's not like I can complain about free lunch. But I find it to be indicative of how much they value me.

The Stephen Merritt gum commercial freaks me out. I was taking a dump today and a lady walked in on me. I lost my car in a parking garage today that had a mere 5 levels.

Today, while eating my sandwich from a restaurant, I bit into and subsequently ate half of a toothpick.

I voted over 200 times for Danny Noriega on American Idol tonight.

One Sentence from Bai Ling's Real Life Blog (New Feature!!)

I like the fantacy world or the world we don't realy see every day when your eyes are wide open, but when you close the beautiful window of your eyes, then you really opend the vision of your true world alone, like a secret river of moving lights and image......with the sound of the delightful spring birds. our eyes only designed to see what we see now, but the real world is so much more magical, maybe you think you are ware blue today, but you are actrully ware red, this is how different the real world could be, and it is a gift if we could let our wings open and our eyes rest till the state you are not aware of if you are seeing the world with your eyes or seeing it with the gift of you whole open universe......