Irritation

I'm frustrated. There are oh so many things irritating me right now, and only a few of them are in my control.
I'm bored and I am sick of waking up after 2 in the afternoon and not being able to fall asleep until after 4 in the morning. I realize the last 2 are connected, but even after 4 sleeping pills, I still don't feel sleepy.

Starting next week I will not be bored--I will be way too busy for boredom. I would prefer to not be bored due to the throngs of wonderful people vying for my attention, but that would require finding throngs of wonderful people. I know a few, and they pretty much leave me to myself.

I have a deal with a friend--we both have to go on a 'real' date within the next 8 weeks. I will keep you updated on this--I don't have the best outlook on dating right now. I don't think dating sucks or men suck, but I just can't imagine meeting someone I would be interested in who would also be interested in me. That's really the kicker--they need to be interested in me, otherwise it's just kidnapping--and I ain't getting busted for that again.

I decided to look online--just to see what is out there. Why did I do that? I know who is online in this town looking for love: perverts and losers. There's just no way around it--I am going to have to leave my home to find men to date. I kept waiting for men to come knocking on my door---never happened.

And I would just like to say that only supermodels meet men at the grocery store. I hate, hate, hate women's magazines that say: Find Romance in the Dairy Isle and other craptastic nuggets of lies. Maybe I should read BBW to find out where dumpy chicks meet men. They will probably say in the ice cream isle. I hate fashion magazines.

Once again: I am irritated. My life is boring. I want a boyfriend. I want to meet some more intelligent people to hang out with. I want some current uncomfortable inter-personal situations to resolve quickly in my favor--whatever that means. I wish I knew where I wanted to live after I graduate--and I wish I had a killer job lined up. I can get all of these things, right?

I am giving myself deadlines in a public space to make myself do things.
1. Go out and socialize 3 times a week starting this week, or next week.
2. Get a boyfriend or boyfriend-ish person by Christmas.
3. Try to meet one new person a week.
4. Cultivate friendships better starting NOW.
5. Starting this week: contact alumni in cool cities or with cool jobs.
6. Decide by January on a city to live in.

That's all I can think of for now. Suggestions?