I've decided to become vegan. Relax, I am not turning into a dirty hippie, I just need to be healthier. My heart has been hurting again---it did this the last time I gained weight and when I was a heavy smoker. Basically my weight is too much for my heart, so I must get rid of it.
Veganing out will take some time--I refuse to waste the food I have, so as soon as all of my non-plant based food is gone, then I will be a vegan. Except for the occasional shrimp.

I have other non-food issues pressing on my heart making it hurt right now as well. And I am also taking a pro-active stance on these things--as much as I can. I'm not trying to be cryptic, ok, yes I am--drama free living and all that--basically my relationship with a certain man is evolving/morphing into something new, something I am not entirely comfortable with. I don't want to be just a friend, and I certainly have no desire in becoming an after-thought friend--you know the kind of friend where Sunday rolls around and you say to yourself: I meant to e-mail/phone/telepathically communicate with so and so. I guess saying I am pro-active is a little misleading--that makes it sound like I am doing something about it, but actually I have to decided to stop fighting the change. As I am a natural fighter, this is taking effort on my part to go with the flow, so that's what I meant by being pro-active. I think I am also going to take a page from Ashley's book and let him initiate any and all communication--again, something very against my nature.

So I am becoming a vegan who has a que sera sera attitude. (I really do sing that song to myself when I start freaking out.) I can think of worse things to be.